I am 23 days into a new year and for the first time in what may be my entire life, I am creating resolutions. 23 days without booze for what I figure is the first time in 10 years, as I started drinking fairly regularly in high school. An even bigger separation from addiction that I vouched as a resolution is eliminating social media from my life. In that process I was asked to create a blog. A blog about food, my life, and my dog. This one is for you, Jess. Here it is, the alpha. I feel weirdly guilty for waiting 23 days to create this blog post, but something was causing my writers block when it came to the screen, while my journal pages have been quickly flipping, busting out new text to add to my in-progress novel. So many goals I seem to have lost them in my head. Habits seem easier to take out; addictions are boring. Starting new routine is seemingly much harder but at least as I start to feel comfortable with letting go, time can be used in new ways. Granted, it is without much effort as my two previous addictions could turn to be real time sucks. (That includes the endless scroll of “fomo” and the multiple trips to the corner store for a sixer and some Takis.) Sleep is surprisingly more feasible. Hangovers don’t exist if you’re not supplementing with booze during your evenings, but damn, I do love everything about booze.
Yeah, yeah, getting drunk is cool and all and at the time it seemed to be the answer, but reflecting on consumption, I like the entire art form that is alcohol consumption. I like beverages. I like food and flavors. I really like it, honestly. Gazing into my crystal ball into the past, back to the strike of the new year, I see my last kiss of booze. I remember drinking it quickly to feel without sensation, a feeling sought often. I hope that when I bring it back into my life I can consume it as if it is something special.
I have intended on starting this blog for food adventures but I feel like some non-food adventures and brands I like and my sweet looks are okay to mention too. I had been procrastinating this first blog post for no real reason, even though I have taken some food pictures. I splurged deeply on an iPad Pro for my future graduate school adventures and my current writing adventures, even though pencil, pen, and paper will always be part of my endeavors at the same time. I guess when I sit down with a certain intent, it requires a certain medium. It is hard to resist that especially with so much option. Granted, this new beautiful screen and its speed and size is so perfect I can’t help but keep my hands off of it– plus, I want to get my money’s worth 😉. I use a windows computer, an Android phone, and an iPad as my mobile computing device, what can I say, I am versitile.
I am not certain how thorough or in depth each blog post will be or the frequencies of the posts, but I wanted to provide a somewhat thorough introduction with a little bit of free-flow tangent, the sequence my mind lends itself to. I feel the innate connection and my recent realization is to try and be more aware even when multitasking. Give myself time or I’ll stress myself out. Give myself too many things to handle and I am forgetful, or I get overwhelmed. I realized my catch phrase is awkwardly singing or stating, “being a person,” at any given point of blatant humanity. It is humbling, really, to recognize how impossible it is to be anything but as fragile and particular as we are as living things… and with the intricacies and organization of humanity and the layers of innocent and malicious fallacies coupled with utter bliss and compassion– boy we sure are set up to be into some sort of shit, eh?
bleached coral 